Crucifiction

The realest truth I'll ever know
That your love became my greatest foe
It beat me bare down to my bone
Snatched the light right out my soul
I yearned and howled to be loosed
I feared my resort lied in a noose
The pain and aches your love gave
Sent me spiraling towards my grave
Nightmares now opress my dreams
Midnight sweats awake midbreath screams
Lonely tears full of pain and fears
Shut down my love slowed all it's gears
The evolution of my misery
Was not a quiet profound mystery 
It came ever so slow ever so prominent
I was naive it was my bed I chose to lie in it
The day you let yourself give up on me
Became the night that love crucified me
High upon the cross for love
No ground below no sky above
There was no knowledge of what this meant
Just the pain left over from loves abandonment
I died that moment high in suspension
A victim of the pain from loves crucifiction
 

 
 

Attached

The chain attached to your heart attached to the stake posted in the ground of your past, free yourself if you want this to last
There is a promised attached to this love I have to give, attach yours to it a healing powerful enough to set you free at last
There is a beauty attached to you so profound that words couldn't even express you, it's being shadowed by the fear that deafens an blinds you, attach yourself to love and let your light shine through you
A winter is cold but there is a shelter to warm you
A summer is hot but there is a shade to cool you
Your legs become weak but these arms are here to carry you
Release your love from the bondage that confines you
Show the path to you heart so the right love can find you
Let this love be the rhythm that rhymes you
Attached to a love that was wrong
Left you suffering long
Attach yourself to a love that is longsuffering, wise and strong 
And you'll find it was the right way all along 

Love trigonometry

 How can a love so gorgeous turn and be so violent, how can I lose somethin I thought to be timeless, I gave it all I had but my heart was a minus, the plus was the bullshit and it left us both divided
Now the conditions of our hearts just adds up to silence
My heart was your target and every shot you took equaled to a dodge or a miss... From me
Little did I see that the greater than was you and the less than was me
The solution to this problem was by a factor of three.. An open mind from you, an open heart from me and effective communication could have set us both free
For us to be we stick to the following
You plus me equals m(x) plus C
M being "more" times x , "x" bein what it takes to love and C being more communication from you to me 
It doesn't take much to figure out this love trigonometry 

Solitary heart

You my solitary heart, soiled by the lies of the world, beaten by the betrayal of love done wrong, I swear you and I will never part. Our longsuffering journey to your mate, over the mountains of insecurities, through the valleys of diceit, we'll conquer any challenge to meet our fate. Your duty to keep singing your song, my job to shelter you and carry you along. Closer and closer to a love, to a heart who's song matches your own, my lonely heart oh how you've grown, Your bruises gone, your scars healed and to think you thought love is what you feared. Coming over this horizon you're racing time, I hear you whisper soon she'll be mine, even if they stopped the world my love will suffer no demise. solitary heart with a solitary love I'll carry you through night I'll carry you through shine, I'll carry you through death I'll carry you through time.  

Rest in peace baby sis and cuz I miss you

Baby bull, baby bee where are you going? You are not ready to be on your own yet, you and the ground have just barely met. Your hooves are soft and your wings are weak, these roads are tuff and these winds are strong, just wait, just wait, it won't be long. It won't be long until u get your chance, your chance to roam your chance to fly, your chance to live your chance to love, your chance to try all of the above. Wait!, why won't you wait? Where are u going, what's over there, wait baby bull u hardly have hair. baby bee wait for me, its cold out there can't u see? You are going too far please come back, hold on I cannot see, why won't you two speak to me? You have gone too far I cannot follow, I do not know what dangers you face, Why must you tred those creepy hollows? Ill wait all night for you to come home, you two are out there all alone, I know your hooves are worn and your wings must rest I can only pray for the best. I wake up, I had been sleeping, I find a bird who had been weeping. Little bird why does your eyes cry those cries? dear people I've been here since break waiting for u to wake, I have a news but for it u must wait. A news from who young swallow? Dear people why its from the hollow. Could it be my dear bull and bee? Well What was said to me, it was a group of friends you see, unknown to me is their identity. I am here u must trail beyond this land into the wood. I as a whole cannot go, take my eyes and they shall show. for I as a whole cannot sustain such a blow. Hours went by not a sound nor a breeze, where was the tiny swallow? Here I am dear people, here, there u go, now do u see? Your eyes will speak honestly. No! no!, my dear bee, my dear bull why did u not hear my plea? I do not want this vision my eyes now see, I do not want this truth that has come to be, take this pain away from me. It is yours to hold and yours alone, but thru this pain u must grow, hold fast to the redeemer, do not hear the deceiver. Open your eyes and keep your sight, if they are closed u cannot see the light. They were here by day gone by night, but keep in your heart baby bull and baby bee are alright.

The love you chose to be

People say when you fall in love it just happens
Like a sudden trip and fall happen
No You don't get infected with love it's not a disease.. please
Love is a choice in which You choose to be
Love is a gift to you from another
Love is not done for reward it's done unselfishly 
without rebate or guarantee
Without the m before e
But with the u before s
Only when you choose will
It become the beat in your chest 
The words on your tongue
It'll be a song forever sung
You'll be a lover and a fighter
Fighting for what you love
And loving what you fight for
What you protect and provide for
Your love will be to die for
You'll die to yourself and live for the other
In the storm you'll be the cover
In the light you'll amplify your lover
Significantly magnifying intimacy
That intense unusual knowlege of your man or lady
The one who maximizes their qualities and the one to minimize their deficiencies
You..A testimate of the love you chose to be

The power of honesty & the lack thereof

I beleive it is human nature to fear what we don't understand and what we cannot control. We live in our own perception of the world and have our own expectations of the people in it and sometimes those expectations can be and often are unrealistic. 

To alleviate the fear we are born with it takes honesty with self and to help free others of their fear it takes being honest to others. By excersising honesty our perceptions of the world and others will begin to change as we do.

Being honest can be one of the greatest difficulties for some people simply because honesty takes a great strength to do so. Honesty is where many of us fail the most, especially when it comes to being honest with ourselves. We often deny what's obvious to everyone else, we reject what we don't agree with even when it's full of truth. We convince ourselves that we are who we are and there is nothing we can do about it. We tell ourselves that those who we attach ourselves to have our hearts completely and there is no one else for us, even when these people are a source of great turmoil in our lives. If we would gain the strength to be honest in ourselves we would be more equipped to let go of old baggage and obtain new gifts from our futures.

The failure of outward honesty has contributed to immense damaging of our social interactions between each other. Everyone has the feeling no one can be trusted because lack of honesty in their past has taught them to beleive that. I beleive that not being honest takes more effort than it does to simply give the honesty that the circumstance warrants for. People like to tell the truth that they want to tell but not the truth that's necessary in order to alleviate them from feeling bad for lying but at the same time get away with lying. The only thing about that is there will come a time when that alternate truth will be discovered for what it is and either you tell the truth desired or the truth that's easy.

Relationships between people will continue to have problems unless we can master being honest completely, this is the power of honesty and the lack thereof.